Friday, April 29, 2011

Hella Heaven is not online

I have no idea what happened.

I regained my Google account and the blog is back. I'm sorry for the false alarm.

I cannot access the account to my blog Hella Heaven: Blogger have no help of any kind in any situation

That's the news! I'm having my posts stolen at this blog and now the account with blogs, I just created another one on Wednesday, suffered something I have no idea but Google describes as:

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That is it. When our posts are stolen they say there is nothing they can do it is not a big issue and we look as drama queens.
I believe that or you buy a domain or you have better silence.
I don't think people have the exact dimension of how much work bloggers do. It seems that only those who blog about their work loses something and those who write about their photographies, a picture... no, it is not that important anymore because of digital cameras: the artistic value of photographies lost a little.
It seems that writing, if it is not poetry, No... poetry is easy, you just have to rhyme... a novel,... also easy just tell the story of your neighbor.
If you don't blog about science don't bother. I'm amazed!
I just ask myself when will bloggers have a place to tell their problems and be heard because what is happening, and I read a lot at Google's help, is unacceptable. 
As impunity is certain, those who want to steal, or do whatever they want will keep doing it.
I just feel so stupid with all the work and time I lose to attribute every picture of every drawing.
Copy, paste and don't bother.
Nobody cares! I had pictures stolen too. No problem, take others. 
There is something terrible wrong and I know I'm right! Being ethical is not useless! You will never prove me otherwise.
Okay! I'll start another blog. Hell, Hell, Hell and Heaven occasionally!
No! I don't have a cell phone. I'm not a lawyer or a doctor. I don't need one for I already have a phone at home and that is enough! I have a good mobile taht I use as a clock.  I don't like watches.
Yes, I'm crazy!

Mother of 2 Yvonne Woodley, 42, hanged herself induced by Citalopram

Coroner calls for urgent anti-depressant inquiry after doctor blames drug for mother's suicide

Last updated at 6:46 PM on 7th December 2010
Enlarge A mother-of-two hanged herself while her children watched TV downstairs after anti-depressants turned her into a zombie, an inquest heard
A mother-of-two hanged herself while her children watched TV downstairs after anti-depressants turned her into a zombie, an inquest heard
A coroner has ordered an urgent investigation into an anti-depressant after it turned a mother-of-two into a 'zombie' before she was found hanged in her attic.
Housewife Yvonne Woodley, 42, visited six GPs who increased her dosage of Citalopram in the months before her death.
But she became more agitated after taking the drug and told people she wanted to die.
Her husband Kevin found her hanging in the loft of the family home in Solihull, West Midlands, on October 25 last year.
Their two daughters, aged ten and 14, were watching TV downstairs at the time.
Birmingham coroner Aiden Cotter called for more research into the drug after experts raised concerns over its side-effects.
The inquest in Birmingham on Monday heard how Yvonne saw six GPs on nine occasions at Solihull's Yew Tree Medical Centre last year.
Doctors increased the dosage of the drug but her mental state continued to deteriorate.
Professor David Healy, an anti-depressants expert at Cardiff University, told the inquest he believed the drug was to blame.
He said: 'I believe the drug was likely to have played a part.
'Yvonne was clearly suffering adverse effects of the drug and it was this that put her at risk.
'If treatment was contributing then putting the dosage up wasn't the thing to do.
This is the second inquest regarding this drug I have attended in the past five months. There have also been homicide cases involving it.'
Yvonne's mother Vera Sansbury told the hearing she saw her daughter turn into a 'zombie' after taking the drug.
She said: 'The change in my daughter was remarkable.
'She was a stable, happy, calm person but in three weeks the decline was rapid to a woman who was trembling, had panic attacks and wouldn't make eye contact.
'She was like a zombie. The eyes were blank and flat and there was no emotional response. Yvonne displayed every single side-effect of the drug.'
Housewife Yvonne Woodley was discovered in the family home's loft (family home pictured, Solihull, Birmingham) by her husband Kevin
Housewife Yvonne Woodley was discovered in the family home's loft (family home pictured, Solihull, Birmingham) by her husband Kevin
The inquest heard that the drug was a common anti-depressant which came with a warning about side-effects.
The effects include agitation and mental turmoil in the first weeks of treatment and trials showed it could increase the risk of suicide.
Recording an open verdict, coroner Aidan Cotter said: 'I cannot be sure of what happened and Mrs Woodley's death may have been an accident as she made a cry for help.
'I will write to the Medicines and Healthcare Products Regulatory Agency asking if more research is needed into the drug.'
Dr Christopher Muldoon, representing Lundbeck which manufactures the drug, said: 'The drug is safely used by millions of people but it could cause someone to take their life who had not previously thought of doing so.
'I don't think this was the case with Mrs Woodley as I think it was her underlying depressive illness.'
I'm publishing  just to say I'm here. I'll always be here even not publishing the way I did in the two first years. The best way to read this  blog is  backwards: starting in 2008, 2009, 2010 and in 2011 I'm dedicating to copy and paste news. 
I'm sorry but for the moment this is what I can do. I wish I could do more but it would cause me too much pain. Thank all the bloggers who are daily or in a regular basis fighting.
If you need me to any cause or any call I'm always around but you can find me at Facebook.
Love you all!

Friday, April 15, 2011

Good News: Last post of Survivors can Strive and a beautiful story

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Marj at Survivors can Strive did her last post. After six years of blog she feel it's time to start another era:

"I thought about a few different things I would write for this post. Then, I had a little get together with a group of my friends that we sometimes call the "going deeper" group. It's a group of people that tend to have very little tolerance for idle chit chat and bullshit. We like to talk about "deep things." During our last get together, we drank wine and read each other our own obituaries that we had written for ourselves. Here is what mine said:

"The major accomplishment in the life of Marj McCabe was breaking the cycle of abuse. It was a cycle of child abuse--sometimes insidious, always heinous--that she was forced to inherit and had gone on for generations on both sides of her family of origin. Although this accomplishment took the excruciating work of therapy for much of her adult life, she never could have done it without the patience and love of her amazingly supportive husband. She never would have embarked on the perilous journey in the first place, had it not been for the immense love she felt for her own offspring.
 And while it never received the fanfare or recognition of other achievements having such great potential for positive impact on future generations, Marj could grasp its significance. And for her, it was enough."

Since writing that "obituary," I've thought a lot about just what is enough for me. One of the main reasons I started writing a blog is to find meaning for the abuse I suffered as a child. I'm not sure I've done that, but I have done a lot." whole post here.

I'm happy for her and thou I'll miss her that is the way it is. She helped many people and I'm sure her blog will help others who were abused during childhood.

Monday, April 11, 2011

FDA approves Invega "paliperidone! for children while Vanda Pharmaceutical: clinical trial for Fanapt "iloperidone"

Yes. Invega for children 12-17 years old:
TITUSVILLE, N.J.April 11, 2011 /PRNewswire/ -- The U.S. Food and Drug Administration (FDA) on April 6 approved INVEGA® (paliperidone) extended-release tablets for the treatment of schizophrenia in adolescents 12 to 17 years of age. The efficacy of INVEGA® to treat schizophrenia in adolescents was established in one six-week clinical study. INVEGA® is an atypical antipsychotic medication and was first approved in the U.S. in December 2006 for the treatment of schizophrenia in adults. Janssen Division of Ortho-McNeil-Janssen Pharmaceuticals, Inc., markets INVEGA® in the U.S.

whole article here.
Vanda Pharmaceutical wants all the money from Fanapt

Rockville-based biopharmaceutical company Vanda Pharmaceuticals Inc. (NASDAQ: VNDA) has announced that Novartis Pharmaceuticals Corp., an affiliate of Vanda's sub-licensor Novartis Pharma AG, has initiated a clinical study to evaluate the long-acting injectable formulation of Fanapt (iloperidone).
The Phase 1 study will evaluate the safety and pharmacokinetic profiles of two different long-acting formulations in patients with schizophrenia. Vanda Pharmaceuticals is focused on the development and commercialization of clinical-stage products for central nervous system disorders.
Vanda Pharmaceuticals said that under a 2009 agreement, Novartis has exclusive rights to the depot formulation of Fanapt in the U.S. and Canada. Vanda has exclusive rights to the depot formulation outside the U.S. and Canada, but Switzerland-based Novartis has the option to enter into discussions with Vanda to co-commercialize Fanapt or receive sales royalties for such territory. (emphasis mine, the lunatic)
Schizophrenia is a chronic, severe and disabling mental disorder, characterized by profound disruptions in thinking, affecting language, perception and the sense of self. It often includes psychotic experiences, such as hearing voices or delusions. Schizophrenia typically begins in late adolescence or early adulthood and affects 2.4 million Americans, or 1.1 percent of the U.S. adult population.

After all these good news we can be at peace.

Duke and Johns Hopkins Universities blame "defects in switch system" for schizophrenia and suggest ways to prevent it

 I'll copy and paste because I'm still so happy with this incredible finding that... OmG! It will never stop! The good news: All the theories till today are incorrect. The problem is the BBS1. I wonder how things will be when they start studying BBS2, BBS3, BBS4, BBS7, BBS... HEAVEN!!!!!!! lol
There it goes:

Brain Development Switch Could Affect Schizophrenia, Other Conditions

ScienceDaily (Apr. 7, 2011) — An international team of scientists lead by researchers from Duke University and Johns Hopkins University have discovered a key "switch" in the brain that allows neurons to stop dividing so that these cells can migrate toward their final destinations in the brain.

The finding may be relevant to making early identification of people who go on to develop schizophrenia and other brain disorders.
"This work sheds light on what has been a big black box in neuroscience," said Nicholas Katsanis, Ph.D., co-senior author of the work and Jean and George Brumley Jr., MD, Professor of Developmental Biology, Professor of Pediatrics and Cell Biology. "It helps answer the question of what happens when neurons stop dividing and start moving along to populate the brain."
The study was published by Naturejournal on April 6 in its advance online publication.
Katsanis predicts that, for perhaps 10 percent of psychiatric illness, the illness is primarily driven by defects in this switch system. "So we now have ways to interpret variation in humans, in a context that is relevant to their particular cases, to their physiology -- that is where medicine will move next," Katsanis said.
Katsanis, who directs the Duke Center for Human Disease Modeling, and Akira Sawa, M.D., Ph.D., a Professor in the Department of Psychiatry at Johns Hopkins, were introduced to each other by a clinical colleague who thought that Bardet-Biedl syndrome (BBS) proteins that are involved in transport duties within cells might have a role in schizophrenia. Katsanis is an expert in using BBS genetic mutations and proteins to learn more about other diseases. BBS is a complex genetic disease with autism-like symptoms, cognitive defects and depression. Sawa is an expert on DISC1, the protein named Disrupted in Schizophrenia 1, known to be a major susceptibility factor for schizophrenia and related disorders. (emphasis mine)
Together, they discovered that these proteins are involved in a key switch for neurons that is necessary for brain development. When DISC1 gains a phosphate group at a specific site, it recruits BBS1. When BBS1 is missing in this system, the team could observe defective neuron migration, while a model with no DISC1 at all leads to defects in both cell proliferation and migration. (emphasis mine, the layperson)
We can now appreciate that some fraction of schizophrenia is truly developmentally regulated, Katsanis said.
"Even though the disease manifests itself after pubescence, scientists have suspected that the underpinnings are prenatal," he said. "We can greet this news with sadness or see it as an opportunity: we may have 20 years to help before a person starts experiencing symptoms, if we can develop techniques to use early enough." (emphasis mine in panic)
The study also provides another example of how BBS proteins fit into neuroscience and provide another instance in which understanding of a rare phenotype (BBS) informs complex traits, like schizophrenia, profoundly, Katsanis said. "The trend in recent years has been to focus heavily on common disorders and to disregard disorders that might impact fewer people. Yet rare disorders continue to provide such important insights both into basic biological processes and complex disease."  (Emphasis mine, pressing panic bottom)
"With these findings, we have tools for interpretation in some schizophrenia cases," Katsanis said. About one in 100 children born go on to develop schizophrenia in early adulthood.
Now the scientists are engaged in medical re-sequencing of patients with psychiatric illness with a specific focus on the groups of proteins involved in the switch process. "We will be able to ask focused questions about the amount of variation that this particular system contributes to the complex landscape of genetic disease," Katsanis said.
Other authors include Edwin C. Oh and John F Robinson of the Center for Human Disease Modeling and Departments of Cell Biology and Pediatrics at Duke; and researchers from the Departments of Psychiatry and Behavioral Sciences and Neuroscience at Johns Hopkins University in Baltimore; the Departments of Physiology and Anatomy at Keio University School of Medicine in Tokyo; and the Molecular Pharmacology Group, Institute of Neuroscience and Psychology at the University of Glasgow.
The study was supported by U.S. Public Health Service grants, from the Silvio O. Conte Center; grants from Stanley and RUSK foundations and from Maryland Stem Cell Research Fund; grants from NARSAD and S-R foundations; grants from the Macular Vision Research Foundation and the Foundation for Fighting Blindness; the Distinguished George W. Brumley Professorship; a grant from Health Labor Sciences; grants from Strategic Research Program for Brain; the Fight for Sight Postdoctoral Fellowship; and a grant from the Medical Research Council, UK.
I'm in panic! What? I'll search the image of the panic bottom.

Saturday, April 09, 2011

Brazilian school-shooter had mother who tried suicide and was schizophrenic

At this video is the brother of Wellington de Meneses Oliveira. It is edited and I'm sure that this interview could help understanding more about the killer, the monster, as he is being called, who shot the children but it was released only 1,29 minutes with the voice of the reporter narrating.
It is not at this part of the video that it is said his biological mother was schizophrenic. It was Rodrigo Neves, secretary of welfare state and humans right who claimed so.
The brother says that Wellington was always very low profile and didn't socialize too much; that the biological mother had mental problems and tried to commit suicide; he searched the internet about gun shots; that Wellington surprised the family with thoughts saying that he felt like doing something like destroying an airplane like it was done in USA; he went to psychologists but quited.
What is being said at Globo network is not everything and they keep repeating   or adding new material to make people have only one opinion about the case.
I will stop following it and will no longer update because I don't have unbiased data. 
I wish that humans right organizations were following the case but there is not such a thing in Brazil nowadays. Not for this case.
The discussion is being centered in the access to weapons. In Brazil the constitution don't give Brazilians the right for guns.
They only want to disarm people and are claiming that it is the main reason why the crime was possible.
ENOUGH! This is the misinformations I have for today! the last one.
Can any organization from any part of the world help? Thank you!
I found this site and want to share it:

"Menezes de Oliveira's classmates and former teachers said he was routinely bullied at school, rejected and taunted by girls in class, and forced to endure "constant humiliation" including being thrown into a school garbage can, according to Brazilian media.
Fellow students gave him the nasty nickname "Swing," because he walked with a limp, said former classmate Bruno Linhares, who lamented to O Globo newspaper that "the class fool turned into a criminal."
"They called him all kinds of names," said Linhares, 23, who studied with Menezes at Rio's Tasso da Silveira school where the bloodbath took place.
"I honestly do not know why he did not do that (massacre) with our own group," Linhares told local media.
Experts took to Brazil's airwaves, seeking to explain just how he could have turned to evil, with some saying Menezes could have been reacting to the abuse at school." .........

........."Menezes de Oliveira's family said their adopted son had left home eight months earlier, when his mother died and became even more withdrawn.
Adopted as a baby, he had five brothers and sisters who said he never had friends.
Recently he was looking disheveled, dressing in black and looking at weapons sites on the Web, his older sister Roselaine said.
"We found it odd. He had a long beard (and) said strange things. He spent his time on the Internet, had no friends, was very withdrawn," Roselaine, who last saw her brother seven months ago, told TV Band News.
According to one neighbors, Menezes "walked with his head down without speaking to anyone."
Menezes worked as a messenger, but was sacked last August.
"He was always alone but never aggressive," said one employee, adding that "everyone (at the company where Menezes used to work) was horrified" by the attack." (whole article here)

Update: 14:20 p.m. GMT
It is funny watching psychiatrists explaining the delusion. You can see how they don't understand and how some of them condemn their own perception of what they believe that was in the mind of someone they never saw. But they behave like this even with their own patients!

Friday, April 08, 2011

School Shooting in Brazil: I'm overwhelmed

animated_candleMaybe you don't know what happened yesterday in Rio de Janeiro. Facts:
"Rio de Janeiro, Brazil (Reuters) - Rio de Janeiro's Civil Police released on Thursday (April 7) a security camera video showing the moment a gunman walked into a school and opened fire on children in two classrooms.
Twenty-four-year-old Wellington de Oliveira killed 12 children and then shot himself at a public school in Rio's poor outskirts, shocking the South American nation that has never seen such an incident before. 
The hallway video shows Oliveira carrying a gun and several children running desperately out of two classrooms as he shot indiscriminately at them. 
Police said Oliveira entered the school carrying two guns and a suicide note. Oliveira told security he was there to deliver a speech and then opened fire on students. 
He was a former student at the school. Police said they believed he was mentally unstable, citing the content of the suicide note, which asked that "(someone) stand in front of my tomb and ask God to forgive me for what I did." 
Oliveira did not have a police record." 

This is the translation that Globo Network did of part of the note Wellington Meneses de Oliveira carried with him. The entire letter has not yet been published even in Brazil:
"You should first know that the impure cannot touch me without gloves, only the chaste or those who lost their chastity after marriage and were not involved in adultery can touch me without gloves, or, in other words, no fornicator or adulterer can have direct contact with me, nor anything that is impure can touch my blood, nothing impure can have direct contact with a virgin without his permission, those who prepare my burial should take off all my clothes, wash me, dry me and wrap me totally naked in a white sheet that is in this building, in a bag that I left in the first room on the first floor, after they have wrapped me in this sheet they can put me in my coffin. If possible, I want to be buried next to the grave where my mom sleeps. My mom's name is Dicea Menezes de Oliveira and she is buried in the Murundu cemetery. I need to be visited at my grave by a faithful follower of God at least once, he must pray in front of my grave and ask God's forgiveness for what I did praying that upon his return Jesus wakes me from the sleep of death for eternal life.
I left a house in Sepetiba which no family needs, there are poor institutions, financed by generous people, that take care of abandoned animals, I want this space where I passed my final months donated to one of these institutions, because the animals are being very despised and need much more protection and care than human beings who have the advantage of being able to communicate, to work to feed themselves, so those who take ownership of my house, I ask you to please have some common sense and abide by my request, automatically they will be fulfilling the wishes of my parents who wanted to pass this property to my name and everybody knows this, comply with my request otherwise they automatically will be disrespecting my parents' wishes, which would prove that all of you have no consideration for our parents who now sleep, I believe that all of you have some consideration for our parents, proving this by doing what I asked."

I just saw the videos at Youtube and I will not publish now because I would like to choose one that has less journalistic intervention. They did a "photography" of Wellington from a video and he looks scary but it is the way they want him to look. People are calling him crazy and yesterday a psychiatrist said that he is sure that Wellington is paranoid-schizophrenic. Another psychiatrist came up with the same diagnostic at night but in a nicer way, at least saying that the vast majority of schizophrenics don't do it and are victims of crimes. But it was a very quick interview. 
So we have schizophrenia, school-shooting, suicide... what a great combination for the media and politicians to manipulate it the way they want.
People are infuriated and claiming that this "animal", this "lunatic", this "psychopath", this "beast" don't deserve any mercy.
I had a terrible day yesterday and publish something at my other blog. Didn't sleep well and I keep thinking about these children. Wellington is a former student of the school. It is all very confusing. I wonder why these kind of things only happen in the poor part of the town. I have many questions but for the moment I need to quiet my mind. I have to be silent. It's hard. But this is the right thing to do. I felt like publishing it here because this is the blog I share my feelings and my.... I don't know... my children... the sound of the voice of a woman shouting "My son!" will haunt me for some hours. But Wellington too. I believe some of you can understand him a little. 

Monday, April 04, 2011

To all the children who had their lives interrupted because of psychiatric drugs suicide

To the beautiful boys and girls!!! You left early... now you are at peace. I'm sure you are all at peace. Every day... in every way... it's getting better and better... Darling boys and girls...
I hope your parents have strength... let's say a little pray for them...

Harry Hucknall hanged himself at the age of 10 - I urge the parents to read one of my posts!

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Undated Cumbria Constabulary handout photo of 10-year-old Harry Hucknall, cousin of Simply Red singer Mick Hucknall, who was found hanged in the bedroom of his home in Dalton-in-Furness, Cumbria, last year (Picture: Cumbria Constabulary/PA)Undated Cumbria Constabulary handout photo of 10-year-old Harry Hucknall, cousin of Simply Red singer Mick Hucknall, who was found hanged in the bedroom of his home in Dalton-in-Furness, Cumbria, last year (Picture: Cumbria Constabulary/PA)

"Ian Smith hit out at the pressures placed on youngsters by today’s society after being told of the death of Harry Hucknall, who was given fluoxetine and Ritalin for attention-deficit hyperactivity disorder.
He said: ‘I do believe it reflects upon society how we expect children to behave. We expect them to be little adults. ‘We as a society quite rightly try to stop children dabbling in street drugs. And yet a child with this label of ADHD is prescribed, under supervision, mind-altering drugs of a very powerful nature.’ Harry, a twice-removed cousin of the Simply Red singer, was described as a ‘troubled boy’. He was unsettled by moving home 14 times and bullied at school – on one occasion he was held down and threatened with a screwdriver.
In September, he was found dead in his locked bedroom in the home he shared with his mother in Dalton-in-Furness, Cumbria. The levels of both drugs found in his system were above the normal therapeutic level for adults. West Cumbria coroner Mr Smith said, although Harry talked of suicide, he did not intend to end his own life. Instead, he told the inquest in Barrow, he ‘died as a consequence of his own actions without understanding their true consequences’. Harry’s father, Darren, who is separated from his mother, said the drugs were ‘a major contribution to what happened’. ‘He never mentioned he wanted to kill himself before the tablets,’ he claimed."

I read it last week and felt like talking to the parents. I cannot find them but I urge them to read this post I wrote about drug-induced suicide ideation: "Drug-induced suicide attempt: how to differentiate real suicide from drug-induced (repost)"
This post is for those who are taking psych-drugs that are known to provoke drug-induce suicide ideation and it shows how powerful the chemical wanting to die is. If you are a family member you have to rely on your observations but, please, don't let the death of your son be another story, another number.
Search the web. You will find other stories. At this blog there are other cases too.
What a beautiful lad! R.I.P. Harry... beautiful, beautiful, beautiful...
Beautiful boy...